Dick : What's wrong with you?
Fat Fingers : I don't know... i am just not motivated to work
Dick : Why? Is it because of your work? your boss??
Fat Fingers : I don't know... oh does the HR here do any counselling?
Dick : What?
Fat Fingers : Counselling.
Dick : What??
Fat Fingers : Counselling... HR.. do they do any counselling?
Dick : What? Can you tell me what's wrong?
Fat Fingers : er... no.. Sorry.. i can't.
Dick : Why? I am your boss you have to tell me
Fat Fingers : I am sorry.. i cannot..
Dick : You must tell me.. *closes the door*
Fat Fingers : I can't!
Dick : Is this a repeat of last year?
Fat Fingers : No!
Dick : Then Why??
Fat Fingers : *getting annoyed* I don't trust you enough to tell you.
Dick : What do you mean you don't trust me? I am your boss!
Fat Fingers : I know..but.. i cannot
Dick : You MUST tell me
Fat Fingers : *trying to supress vulgarities from coming out of her mouth* I'm sorry. I have to end the conversation now...Excuse me. If you want to tell me anything about work.. please email me. I have to go. *gets up to leave*
Dick : NO! NO! NO! You must tell me
Fat Fingers : I said i can't! because i don't trust you! *walks out of room*
OK.. so now.. Dick said i have committed INSUBORDINATION!
Excuse me.... Can you please tell me how is that called insubordination??
I didn't walk out of the room. I excused myself...
Why is he so insistent? Why can't he just let me cool down?
OK maybe trust is too harsh a word to use? I should have used the word "uncomfortable".
He was so upset he called the HR immediately and asked the mgr to come counsel me. But she was on leave so she will counsel me tomorrow! Now, I don't really know what to say to her tomorrow!
And Today i woke up and decided that i had enough...
I have been waking up the past few months.. angry at myself..angry at my work, angry at my boss.
I don't know why i have morphed into this angry monster every morning.
Yes even though there's only about 3 mths to go.. i find it hard to go through the day! It's a struggle! I am actually worried that i'll get a stroke while doing my job!
I emailed my ex colleague and asked her if i was an angry person when i was working with her. She said she can't recall me getting angry all the time (only ocasionally) but she remembers most about my LOUD laughter..
Excuse me, what have you done to Fat Fingers? I miss her.. :(
I don't know how to face the day tomorrow! I think Dick will tell his boss about me walking out.. but i did excuse myself!
Dick has this tendancy to twist everything you tell him and make it seems like it is your fault. Not his.. .. so that's why i cannot trust him.. and i will kick myself if he does that to me when i tell him why i am so frustrated with my work. But of course i didn't tell him that today cos he will get more upset!
Oh and he asked one of my COWorkers what's wrong with me. He thinks that he has helped and protected me a lot and i am so ungrateful to say that i don't trust him. I just thought Dick was just doing his job!! Not protecting me or helping me?
My colleagues did tell me to go and apologise to him cos he told her he's going to sack me if he can!!
With just a few more months to go.. and a few more $$$$ to add to my savings for uni.... i ditched my pride and went to apologise to him..
damn. I cannot stand myself.
Anyway i did clarify that i did excuse myself.. but he still thinks that i walked out! Argh! Fuckwit!
Not looking fwd tomorrow. Oh.. I better dress appropriately cos must meet HR mgr.